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• 8Apr 13

  What's going on with me: School, lack of work, being used...

  Hello GameSpot friends, I figured I should post an update on what's going with me in my life. Plus it's a nice way for me to get some thoughts out.

  After getting my Associate's degree, it took me a year and a half or so to finally decide on a degree to pursue. Considering how much interest I have in computers, I decided to pursue Networking to maybe one day eventually be a Network Administrator. But I have a long ways to go. I'm currently enrolled at Western Illinois University and close to the end of my first semester here.

  I'm not working right now, but will be looking for something part-time for the summer and maybe even further in to next semester depending on the workload I'll have with school.

  When I first arrived here at WIU, I met a girl. I thought she was this short, little blonde girl that was as innocent as ever. Turns out that definitely did not end up being the case. What started out with flirting and getting to know each other, lead to sexual conversations and a desire for each other in the deepest form of love. Having never been in a relationship and having very little experience with girls in the past, I rolled with it as I wise desperate and lonely, but also excited because I never thought a very pretty, nice girl would like me the way she did.

  But things ended up starting out way too fast. The first time we actually hungout, within minutes, she was wanting to take off my pants. We ended up having sex. A week later, we started going out officially. She started telling me she loved me and she was really urking me to say it back. Knowing how blinded I was by the things that were going on between us, I said it back. I got attached and we started everything off with a boom. But two weeks go by, and she goes away for a weekend. She starts texting me and telling me how much she loves and misses me. She comes back and two days in to the week, she breaks up with me out of the blue. To save you some time on the specifics of it, I ended up finding out she did it to flirt with several other guys without consequence. I found out she pretty much used me for sex. I figured this out by talking to some of the other girls on the floor in the dorm she lived. They told me about how she'd have many different guys over the course of last semester after her ex-fiance left her for someone else. They said she was likely doing it to boost her self ego. She met me and finally settled on someone she thought she did love.

  So maybe she really did have feelings for me, and that she meant some of the things she told me. But something hit her and she made a crass decision that was at the expense of my feelings. Well, over the next 3-4 weeks after she broke up with me, she had me over nearly every other night and we continued to have a friends-with benefits relationship. It was quite something. But she eventually stopped this kind of relationship and wanted me to just be her friend. I knew at this point everything was likely over and in the end, I was used, likely as a rebound. I've been depressed and it's hard to get over things when I see her on campus quite a bit. So after making it hard for us to be friends(I still have feelings for her), she pretty much deleted me out of her life by a click of a few buttons. Things have been tough for me because I was lead on to believe we'd be together much longer, and she truly loved me. But it didn't work out that way. What do you guys think I should do? How should I view what happened?

  • Posted Apr 8, 2013 10:40 am GMT
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• 5Apr 13

  Gaming industry is slowly dying

  Completely gone to sh_T! EA, Activision, yearly sequels of lesser quality, DMR/always online connection, ridiculous amounts of patches/updates, online passes..

  I will never quit gaming, but my interest has faded quite a bit.

  • Posted Apr 5, 2013 10:44 am GMT
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• 7Nov 12

  Wish List:

  I've missed out on some games this year but I want to get these games and finish them before I have to go to school next January.

  -Assassin's Creed 3

  -Mass Effect 3

  -Black Ops 2

  -Borderlands 2

  -Max Payne 3

  -Darksiders 2

  I doubt I'll be able to do so because I already have a lot of games I like playing every day but I think this is a good place to remind myself of the games I do need to get!

  • Posted Nov 7, 2012 1:23 am GMT
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